Walking the Dog, Stephen Gately

Thought i would try a different font  :D
I'll leave sizes and colours for now,


Anyway, who thought dog walking could be such an adventure?


Yep, i have a dog :) I don't normally walk the dog at night but i wanted to tonight, just to get some fresh air.
There's a few reasons i don't normally walk the dog at night


1) Bad people are around at night
2) If i let to dog off the lead i could lose it


I encountered both those problems tonight.....


First of all, i was just walking along, minding my own when this group of guys (a few years older than me) aim a firework at me.....yes, a freakin firework!


 Bonfire night is a few weeks off yet but they still had some stuff.


They couldn't light it tho for whatever reason and ran off. I just stood there coz there was nothing else i could honestly do. It scared the shit out me tho, i was watching my back constantly until i got back home.


This was made worse when i let the dog off the lead.....it sees a fox across the road and instinctively chases it. Normally she would just come back but as it was dark i couldn't see where she went.
So, for the next fifteen minutes i'm wandering around, watching my back, looking for a presumably lost dog. After i while i told myself that i had to go home and tell of the bad news, but who is sitting outside the front door?.....Yeh, the dog, looking at me as if  "where have you been?"
I felt stupid lol.
I decided to simply forget about it and go inside, besides, it was freezing outside.


A bit later on, i nipped into the kitchen to get a drink, while my dad is watching something about Stephen Gately's funeral on TV, it was just on the news i think. Then he says, "Thank God"
I reply, confused, "What?"
"That poof's funeral"
I'm not just gonna stand there so i say "Aw, come on Dad, the guy died, have a bit of respect"
"Why?"
"Coz he died..."
"So what, it's one less gay off the streets"
Saddened, i say "Who cares if he was gay? He died!"
"He still took it up the chuff"


I decided not to go any further with my Dad's ignorance but it did sadden me.
I don't pretend to be the biggest Stephen Gately or Boyzone fan, but i do say - R.I.P Stephen Gately, i do apologize on my Dad's behalf.


Anyhoo, i thought my Dad was more decent than that, and he has said to me on a few occasions that he has no problem with gays etc. so i don't know why he decided to take that attitude tonight. Possible that he was just back from a long shift at work but it's still no excuse for those uneeded comments.




Now, to relate back to my last post,


Thanks for your comments everyone. I know labels aren't important and maybe i worded the post wrong but this is all to do with coming out. I know i want to, and i'm pretty sure i will one day, maybe even soon.
There are only two people in my life i would think of coming out to right now -  my cousin and my best friend, Alex, - most likely my cousin. She's really kind, she's funny and understanding as well :) But obviously i can't come out if i'm not even sure myself yet.
And i'm sorry but i can't just say to her,
"Hey guess what, i'm not straight but i dunno if i'm gay or bi"
That would just confuse her, and i wouldn't want to put her in that position.


On the other hand, if she asked me if i was gay or bi, i wouldn't really know how to respond, i would probably just pass it off and say no, which would make it even more difficult if i was to try and come out to her after that. However, she's not the kind of person who asks those questions, so i would rather i approached her first about it.


But to clear things up, that last post was pretty much a debate between myself, i wasn't really trying to label myself, i'm just kinda in the early stages of preparing to come out, if you get me.


Having some trouble with embedding just there, but hopefully it's worked now:P
It a video for Black Eyed Peas - I Gotta Feeling, it's not the official video, this was filmed in a University in Canada and it's absolutely amazing, so here it is -





Cheers,
Rowan