School's Out!!!

I have finally crossed the finishing line!

What a year it's been for school and it's one i'm not going to forget coz of course, i joined blogger here during my 4th year of high school.

A lot has happened since then. One of my first posts talked about how i was beat up by two boys on my bus, another was about how i hate my guidance teacher. Loads of stuff about prelims, exams and all that but i don't want to talk about it anymore, thats all the bad stuff.

The good stuff was really good. Firstly, joining blogger here back in September, being embraced by the lovely folks here, how epic Christmas was, JJ joining us on blogger (Rhyn following suit), coming out to my cousin in the same month, meeting loads of other great people too and now we're here. Summer :D

I'm not gonna bore you with the details of my day, all i'll say was it was good but agonisingly long.


Anyway, it honestly does feel like a weight has been lifted off of me. I can be my true gay self for the next 7 weeks and not have to worry about being my lying straight self or having to sit and endure immature bullshit day in day out.

School was tough and a quite a struggle this year and i don't think i could have coped as well as i have done if it wasn't for the all help and support from you guys. All your comments, emails, everything have helped me greatly and i owe you guys a lot. I am indebted to you and i love you so much so here's a little cliche tune for all of you...


Love and hugs,
Rowan




C'mon, i couldn't not post that! :P

L's Response

So maybe in the dialogue that i posted last time between me and my cousin, you might have thought that L's repsonses were maybe.....limited...?

She said so herself :P

But she did post a heart-warming full response on her blogger account (which i won't give away) a few hours after i came out which was directed at me, so i thought i would post it on here to really show how she took it.

And it was so great for me to read. I was completely overwhelmed.

Here it is :

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Someone told me something today. And it was a big something for them to tell me. It wasn’t expected at all but it just happened. Words cannot describe how… humbled (that’s the honest word which springs to mind when I think about it) I am that they chose to tell me this. To receive that much trust from one person is mind-blowing and I am so grateful and thankful and so much else that you told me. I just can’t get my head around the fact that they trust me so much as to tell me, it’s unbelievable. I know this person will read this eventually and I just want to say thank you so much. When I think of how I handled it I’m not too pleased! I would have liked to have said so much more to you but I was shocked at how much you must trust me to say what you did so my replies may have seemed a bit wooden and stilted but I assure you that I didn’t intend for them to be. When I read back on the conversation I feel a bit silly =) What you told me doesn’t change how I think of you one tiny bit, you’re still the same person to me that you always were (this has now morphed into something of a letter to you =P) and I won’t ever tell any one person. This is something you’ve shared with me and it’s yours, not mine and I promise that I won’t ever tell anyone =). You trusted me and to me that’s a big deal. Reading your blog (and yes I read every single entry) has really really opened my eyes to how you must feel and I hope you know that you can talk to me if you want to. What you told me doesn’t matter to me and I can’t stress that enough, what you said doesn’t change anything at all. Thank you for trusting me, I completely and utterly respect you.

I could carry on all night but I’ve repeated myself several times already and it’s getting late!!

Thank you again.

Wow =)


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I'm sure you see know, even if there was any doubts before, how awesome my cousin is.

I was crying when i read that.

Happy crying, of course.

And it really surprised me when i found out that L had read all my blog!
I'm pretty sure she knows me a lot better know.

I love all my cousins, and i'm sure L does as well. But she must know a lot more about me now than any of our relatives.
And i think that brings us closer together and that makes me happy.

So, once again, thank you for everything L!!!


Anyhoo, i don't have much else to say.
This post was just to show what L's thoughts really were and to show you guys how awesome she really is!


Cheers,
Rowan