Wow...umm... Okay

As I thought I would, I did not go back back to hang out with Louis, Alex, Alan and the likes. Instead I went opted for the "new" group.

Idk why, but i just feel drawn to there. I feel that if i went back a whole big thing would be made out of it and i might even lose friends from this new group. I really don't want that, especially after what i learnt today...

I learnt it at lunch, after interval i decided that i didn't feel awkward, that things were actually ok coz Louis, Alex and a few others are in quite a number of my classes so it's not like i will never talk to them. Anyhoo, that's how i felt so i had lunch with the new folk and this is where i learnt what kinda surprised me.

I say kinda coz i think i knew but i never actually knew for sure. Everyone else does but yeh, a girl in this group, Rose, is a lesbian :)

As i said, i thought i knew from what i've heard and i've overheard her talking about stuff but today i was sitting with her along with one of my older friends (dunno if you remember...) El. And they were just chatting away and i was with them and Rose said, "Yeah, i made out with this girl on Saturday but then she didn't want to talk to me after that" then she joked "It's not easy being a lesbian!"

That's when i knew for sure, so i was like \o/

I gathered myself and actually realised that she doesn't take crap about it off anyone, at least, i've never seen or known her to receive any kind of abuse, so i asked her "Do people not give you shit about being a lesbian...are they scared of you? *insert chuckle*"
"Well a few people used give me shit a couple of years ago but everyone's just kinda stopped caring"

I smiled at this point and i think she noticed, she asked why i asked and i just replied that being in a high school of all places, things might have been said to her but she confirmed that they haven't, for a few years at least.

Then the conversation between the three of us got a bit more explicit, lol, and she was talking about when she done stuff with another girl, and she wasn't bragging, she has people to back this up (don't ask me how) and then El pipes up, "That's one thing i've never understood about lesbians, how do they fuck?"

I literally lol'd and she said "With toys of course, silly"

Anyhoo, i'll leave it there, more was said but i think now is a good time to stop xD


I was totally chuffed when that fact was confirmed for me today, Rose being a lesbian. So, yes an out lesbian is accepted in my friends group and nobody gives her hassle. How awesome is that!? And in a Catholic high school of all places!
It gives me hope even though i don't ever see myself being out in high school... but who knows.

I was also invited to a Halloween party today and most people in the group are going. I've never been a big one for Halloween but this seemed like a good idea so i said i'd go, just gotta think of what to go *as*

Oh dear :P

So on the whole, things panned out quite well today. I was a little unsure this morning but now i feel a bit more comfortable as to where i belong. I wouldn't say I'm completely assured but for now, things seemed somewhat settled and i'm content enough with that.


Rowan <3


lol first ever tag/label as "lesbian"