Before we go any further, i want to make one thing straight: Out of all the gigs ive been to, id probably say this was the least enjoyable.
The band put on a great show and it was still a good gig but for a concert night as a whole, it's probably the worst i've experienced.
So i think i said i was going with Bryan... anyway, i did.
However, Bryan decided (or perhaps his friend did) that it would be a good idea for said friend to come along. This friend... really, he's a bad influence, particularly on Bryan.
He smokes, so Bryan does.
He calls things "gay" so Bryan does.
There's a list, i guess he's ok but he's not the kind of guy id be whooping for joy to hang out with. He'd probably say the same about me but I don't know what Bryan sees in him at all, coz he certainly doesn't seem like a good friend.
Anyhoo, the appearance of this friend lead to what probably annoyed me the most. Some background: Few months ago, Bryan and I were somehow on the topic of smoking and we both pretty much agreed that it was pointless and a waste of money.
Yeh.
3 separate occasions did Bryan and his friend leave the concert hall for a cigarette. I felt rather let down.
If he wants to smoke, shorten his life, make his teeth yellow, make himself stink, then fine, i'm not going to argue with that. It's fucking stupid but if he wants to do it then im not going to stop him.
I'm annoyed because, yeh, he lied to me.
If he had just said that time "Oh, actually i smoke" or something then id have just went with his decision, not argued. Although in fairness, it probably would have been difficult to say that during the conversation, a lot more easier to just agree.
Anyhoo, there was a point after one of the support bands played (btw The Blackout are absolutely shit, first band - Lost Alone were ok) when i was alone with Bryan and i said, "Hey man, im not angry with you or anything but why did you lie to me about the smoking?"
Obviously, putting him on the spot he stammered about and said he thought i knew.
I told him i didn't, and basically told him what ive said above. - Its his choice and thats fine - but i told him why i really disagree with it strongly, because smoking killed both of my dad's parents at very young ages and to an extent, my mum's dad as well.
He said sorry but i told him he didn't need apologise, just that he needn't of lied in the first place.
An awkward few moments ensued, but i had to clear the tension, "Im sorry man, if i annoyed you there, but i just didnt know, im not annoyed at you either... we still friends?"
"Yeah man" he replied and i got a little hug :)
Not long after that, MCR were on and the reason i didn't enjoy as much were for 4 reasons.
1. We were fairly far away (due to leaving the crowd several times for a cigarette)
2. I knew the words to literally a few songs (Teenagers, Na Na Naa, I'm Not Okay) so except from those i was just an onlooker i guess.
3.They didn't play my favourite, Bulletproof Heart :/
4. The whole thing with Bryan was still in the back of my head.
However, MCR had pretty good energy as a band and played their songs well. I at least recognised most of them.
I'm gonna say, the biggest disappointment was really what i first mentioned: Bryan's friend. I do get on with him, but im really indifferent to him, personally. It was his appearance that ruined most of the night.
I bought my ticket originally, not because it was MCR playing but honestly because Bryan was going and i thought id be able to spend a good night with him. I still did, but just not in the way i would have liked.
Perhaps i had too many expectations after the amazing concert that was Biffy Clyro back in November, with Bryan also, but this night just didn't live upto it.
Hopefully another time will come. Apparently Foo Fighters are in talks for a UK tour and Bryan said he'd be interested so maybe then.
I still got a good hug from Bryan at the end when we had to go. His friend's dad was giving him a lift (but not me...yeh...) and i had to rely on the train. Bryan gave me a hug and some money for a taxi in case i didn't catch my train, so at least there's some positive to gain from this :P
Gotta return his money tho coz i did catch my train. /typical
Anyhoo, i suppose this was all a bit ranty and i guess i'll still be a bit hurt for a while in the knowledge that Bryan did openly lie to me but I did still enjoy my night. Maybe not as much as other concerts for various reasons but im sure there will be another time. But now, i must really go to bed coz school starts back tomorrow and so do Prelims. Joy, i'm sure i'll be bright eyed and bushy tailed for that in the morning... yeh, right.
Rowan <3
P.S Gerard Way is hot. I would ;)
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1 week ago

Try not to be too harsh on Bryan for the smoking, it may have been that he socially smokes. So he didn't lie. Or he genuinely didn't know how to tell you. I mean if he asked you if you were gay, would you be truthful?
ReplyDeleteAs for the concert, you win some you loose some. Try to have lower expectations and just have fun with it. So what if there is someone else who's distracting Bryan, there's plenty to share :P And now you get to talk to Bryan about he concert, afterwards! haha
Good luck with Prelims. Jack xx
MCR is pretty cool. I don't know a lot of their music, but what I've heard, I've liked.
ReplyDeleteAs to Bryan. Friends lie. Usually because they're afraid of the other friend's response. But I know how you feel. I had a friend do exactly the same thing to me. It doesn't feel good at all. And I hate it when "tag-a-longs" show up, particularly if it's someone I don't care for.
But I don't think your feelings are wrong at all. Plus, Bryan was thinking about you in the end, and not just cause of the money.
And here's my ignorance: what are Prelims?
Peace <3
Jay
Ugh I totally understand what it's like to not share the same POV with your friends in things like that. I had friends that I didn't see eye-to-eye about drinking, and it kind of bothered me. I think you both handled it well and I hope that it doesn't bother you too much. And hopefully what you told him sinks in to him, and maybe he'll stop :)
ReplyDeleteYou sure get to go to a lot of good concerts! That's awesome :P Woo for MCR :D sounds like you enjoyed yourself aside from what happened with Brian.
Hello Rowan
ReplyDeleteIt's a shame that the evening didn't go as you were hoping, although from what you say, it wasn't entirely negative.
I'm with you on smoking - I tried (unsuccessfully!) to get my parents to give up from when I was about 7 years old - and I can understand your disappointment in uncovering Bryan's deception, because I had a similar experience with my cousin and best friend when he was a teenager - he told me he'd given up, because, I guess, he knew how much I disapproved of it, but it turned out that he hadn't after all. I suppose you could look at it as a 'white lie' in the sense that he wasn't telling you the truth, as my cousin didn't tell me the truth, because of knowing the upset it could potentially cause, without appreciating that the upset would be greater when the deception is discovered.
On a different subject, I've noticed Lauren has deleted her blog - I hope you don't mind me asking, but could you pass on my good wishes to her for the future the next time you speak to her? Thank you in anticipation.
Love & best wishes
Sammy B
I smoked for many years and so did pretty much everyone I knew and since that was the case it was 'normal' or 'usual' and that was fine.
ReplyDeleteI maybe stopped smoking later than some people but now that i have (and so's pretty much everyone else I know) it seems a big deal if I / we have to make arrangements for someone who still does.
But I do so agree with you about the smell and the cost and the fib.
Still, you've had your say and I would hope Bryan takes your view to heart.
Oh and yeah - I think I'd definitely plan to go to the next gig with him asap.
Question I Would ask is - what was Bryan smoking - just tobacco or - something else? You know what I mean? It's a dangerous road to go down, I know for sure.
ReplyDeleteLove your blog do keep it going.
@jay - Prelims are pretty much mock exams and tell us what we have to work towards and give the teachers an idea for a predicted final grade.
ReplyDelete@Sammy I shall do Sammy, thank you.
@Anon Yeh, it was just normal cigarettes, not anything illegal but i still don't like it.
Think all I can say is "meh"... Take the good with the bad, take the happy with the sad, and either learn to do something well or learn to enjoy doing it poorly. Either way, the only person who can bring about change is you.
ReplyDelete-David