Marching On In

Yeh, fail title i know :P


Today was just a pretty average day at school i suppose, nothing extremely eventful but a few things worth of note.

The maths test never went ahead today, it has been re-scheduled for tomorrow. Good times.

Biology was quite fun as usual.
Still no pass mark back yet, hopefully soon, but today we were watching a video about the lungs and it was strange.
They were cutting down a sheep's (removed) throat and when they did it made a really crunchy noise :P
Apparently, we're gonna be doing tht tomorrow, should be interesting :P


PE, we got to play badminton XD

I love badminton and i even got put in a group with Steven and i bet him haha.

When we weren't playing he decided to discuss Scissor Sisters with me again, it's getting a bit old to be honest.
I just told him it's only one song i like (and it is only one) but then he's calling me a big fag and stuff like that and talking about how i aspire to "mince" around on stage like they apparently do.

*facepalm*

So i asked him about Queen and Freddie Mercury and he said, "Oh but he's alright, he was a legend, he's allowed to be gay, i can handle that, but anymore than that....*shakes head* "

I left it at that.

It seems that no matter what i say to Steven he just isn't going to accept gay people.
This time next year he won't be at school and in some ways i'll be glad to see the back of him.
He's just so intolerant, not just of gay people but anyone who isn't British, white and Christian.
He's just full of hate for people although i can tell he takes the rip quite a bit, not really meaning everything he says.

But at the same time, i'll be sad to see him leave. He is a good friend to me, he's kind, funny and (although it may not sound like it) easy to get along with.
I think i'll be able to move on a bit more tho, be more who i really am at school but i really dunno how i'll feel when the time comes for him to leave.....


Anyway, returning to school, just for a spot of english.
We're doing group presentations to the class about a book we're reading called Sailmaker.
We were due to present today but didn't have enough time so we have to do it tomorrow.
Then the teacher announces he won't be in tomorrow and the head of english will be. So we're up first presenting to him, lovely.


Spanish was good today. (Don't say that an awful lot)

Our normal teacher wasn't in so we were pleasantly surprised.
We could actually talk a little for once!
So i took the opportunity to ask the four other boys in my class if they were doing spanish next year.
Only one said maybe, the others said no.

Which brings me back to what my mum said last night about spanish.
I perhaps didn't say it very well.

This could get a bit bogged down but try and bare with me.

I was giving the main reasons to my mum about why i didn't want to do spanish (two languages at one time, same teacher etc.)
We discussed those reasons then after that, i added that i might be the only boy in the class, this is when she asked (in a non-serious tone) "Why? Do you get lonely without boys around?"

So it really wasn't out of context but i apologise anyway for my bad writing of that bit.

Another thing in the last post that was written badly by me.
At dinner when my brother said, "Oh, the gay one?" (Stephen Fry)

When he said that, my mum was eating so couldn't speak right after he said that.
So while my mum was eating i rolled my eyes and said, "Yes the gay one"

THEN mum finishes what she was eating and says, "I don't care, i'll look out for some books"

So yeh, sorry wrote it badly in the last post, i hope i've cleared things up now.
What my mum said wasn't really out of context.

Also, a few of you were saying how mums always know and how my mum must be really nice.
She is, but, like everyone, she has her faults.

Such as, last night, i was finishing off on the computer then she asks me if i was almsot done and i said "Yes, almost"
Then, a few minutes later i lose internet connection completely....

I asked my mum if she touched it and she said she didn't but she obviously did as the wirless router is plugged into a socket in my sister's room and as my sister was sleeping, she never touched it.
My mum was the only other person awake in the house, the only person that could have possibly turned the plug off.

It was a really shitty thing to do and even worse of her to lie to me about it which i know she did. :/

But then today, i come home and what has she got me?

A mini-fridge!

WTF.

Last night she was all bitchy and now she's bought me a mini-fridge :S
I don't get it!

Women are confusing lol (hence why i stay away from them :P KO)


But that's quite a coincidence as i'm sure someone mentioned that i should get a mini-fridge a few posts back :P
Well whaddya know?

I've got one now. Haha.

Only thing i need is USB extensions and i pretty much am sorted.
Don't want a wireless keyboard, they're too much hassle in my opinion.


But back to my mum, don't get me wrong, she is nice, really nice, she does strange things sometimes though and is quite confusing and difficult to read.
Nobody is perfect though.

If i was to tell anyone in my immediate family i was gay it would be my mum.
I'm not ready to yet tho, i still need to figure her out and try and find the best way to tell her.
To be honest, the whole topic of coming out to my parents still scares me quite a bit so i'm not really sure about it yet.

I don't really feel ready and i would prefer to leave it for a while, it's not like i'm desperate to tell them.
It's a secret i would like to keep a little longer.


But, as Stephen Fry once said, "A secret is something you tell just one person at a time".

Thanks to r.jimlad for that one, it is very true :)


Love you guys,
Rowan


P.S Hope you had a good start to March!!!

Moving Into March

Wow, where the hell did February go?

I only just realised tomorrow marked the start of March and it surprised me, i seem to be losing track of my days.

But February really went quick.


A lot has happened, on the blogs here and in general.

School has been freakishly busy for one. But on here, things have just flown.
I've found a lot of new people this month, such as JJ, Rhyn, Raron, Matty to name a few and that's been great.
Meeting more people is always nice.
Recieved quite a bunch of new followers too, so i suppose this month has been pretty good on the whole.

Wonder if that will keep up?


Next month, i expect, will just be just as busy, if not even more so.

School work will intensify, as this month sees the beginning of exams.

Music and Media

They are the final exam, but not really the final exam if you get me.
It's like, they count toward the final grade, so they are vitally important but the exam timetable starts properly in April.

But the busyness start this week in fact.
With the month beginning on a Monday i think it feels a lot more fresh, dunno how, just the way i think of it.

So yeh, this week is already set up to be quite busy.
Particularly Thursday as i have my final Bass Guitar exam and then a Careers Evening after school. So i'll tell you all how that goes, as always of course.
But school is always busy, in fact, i've just remembered that i have to sit the 2nd part of my maths test coz i missed school on Thursday last week and i don't have math on Friday.
So there's another thing to add to the schedule.
Along with just general school stuff that is inevitably busy.

A few birthdays coming up this month too, a few family members and a certain someone else :P
Need to decide what to do for them.


I also wanted to mention what happened at dinner tonight.
We all sat down and i asked my mum that if any Stephen Fry books came into the shop she works at, if she could pick them up for me. She said ok and then my brother went, "Oh, the gay one?
I said, "Yes, the gay one" *rolls eyes*

The my mum said, "I don't care"

So i took the opportunity to agree with her, that made me smile.

A hint, perhaps, that my mum isn't bothered about people's sexual preference :)
I always had a feeling that she wasn't and now i'm getting an even stronger feeling.

Oh, another thing i just remembered. (Remembering a lot at the moment :P)
Today me and mum were talking about possible subject choices for next year and i said i'd rather not do Spanish next year coz i'll have the same teacher, be studying french as well and i could possibly be the only boy in the class next year.
She wants me to do spanish but after i mentioned that she said, "Get lonely in class with no boys around?"

Wow.
A complete WTF moment indeed.
She hinting at something?
I don't think she has any idea but maybe i'm wrong.....


So, anyway i hope you all have a good March and an enjoyable one :D

Cheers,
Rowan