Quick Update

Hi guys, sorry i haven't posted recently, it's been busy and trying to do it on my ipod touch is waaaay too tricky.

This is just a little update on goings-on.

Family reunion at the weekend was epic apart from one upset but i'm not going to go into it right now.

If you wanna read more about the reunion i know Lauren is posting her day by day account of it. I would as well but i don't have a secure computer to use.

I'm gonna get a notepad so i dont forget any important stuff that happens then post about it when i get back.


Back from where?


Well, im still in London just now, at my aunt and uncle's house but just one hour ago my mum booked a week away to Lanzarote for herself, me and my sister. \o/

We are leaving tomorrow morning and coming back next Friday. I didn't get much of a say in where we went, i literally woke up and was told that we were going to Lanzarote. I like it there, i've been before but to be perfectly honest, i would have liked to go somewhere new. Also, i fear that it might get a bit boring because my brother wont be there. Usually on holiday, we have loads of fun together but it's only going to be my mum and sister this time round. Hopefully, there'll be a few other people around that i can get friendly with, i'm not the most sociable person in the world but i certainly don't want to be sitting around on my own for a week. 

That's really all i've got to say just now, don't think i'll be blogging until at least next Friday so here is me saying cheerio again and have a good time wherever you are :)


Hugs,
Rowan

Summer Plans :D

Hey you crazy lot! This is gonna be the last time i am able to post for about 2 weeks i think...

I'm away on hoilday!


Today has been pretty hectic in the house - Steven was over (gulp) coz he had to fix a problem with my ipod (GULP) but thankfully it went ok, in the sense that he never found or seen anything but we didn't get the ipod properly fixed.

I"m not too bothered, all it means is that it isn't jailbroken but i can live with that.

After he left everyone has just been packing like mad here today, it's been mental. People have been running around doing all sorts of errands, dropping the pets off at different people's houses for while we're away and cleaning... and... general busyness.


Anyway, it's late now coz i've been busy all day but i thought i should share with you my plans for this summer :)



Firstly, as you probably know by now (coz i keep talking about it) i will be going off to London for a big family reunion. ^_^

The centre-piece of this event is actually one of my cousins's 21st birthday and there will be a big party on Saturday.

That will be great, but so will getting to see everybody else. I haven't seen my cousins, aunts and uncles for about 3/4 years now and they're a great bunch, i love the family sense of humour especially and simply i just cant wait to see everyone.

So yeh, we will be arriving in London on Thursay night but we are spending a day in Liverpool tomorrow then travelling to London the on Thursday morning, by car.

Don't think Lauren is getting to London until Friday night tho coz she is still in school unfortunately.

But one of the thing that makes this trip so exciting is that our cousin who's 21st it is, doesn't know that the whole family is coming, we're just surprising her on the day and there will be a party on Saturday!


Anyhoo, that's part 1 :D


Part 2 :

On Monday, after everyone has departed, we will still be in London and will hopefully be jetting off to some exotic unknown land on a last minute deal.

Yep, just catching a plane to anywhere, so i don't even know exactly where we're going yet.

It might also just be me, my mum and sister but if we can include my brother and dad as well then that will be cool. It's only coz they went on holiday earlier in the year by themselves and they don't mind staying in London for a week or so. They're taking all their golf stuff with them and i think if they can't come with us they will just be staying in a caravan somewhere, they dont seem to bothered, after all, it is only fair.


Recap :

June 24th - June 28th = Liverpool/London
June 28th - July 5-7th = Unknown destination in Europe somehwere :P


And when i get back i plan to change this blog design and link some more blogs, i got round to a fair bit last night but there are still loads of blogs out there. Remember, the more links, the more traffic there is for everyone, this isn't just personal gain :)


Unfortunately, it looks like this will be my last post until maybe 5th July at the earliest. However, if i can get on a computer somewhere or get a good wi-fi spot then i will try to post some but i cant promise anything.


And with that, i bid you farewell, au revoir, hasta la vista, auf wiedersehen ,adeus, وداعا

Okay, i'll stop now, just messing with translation websites... ha det (sorry couldn't resist)

Love all you guys, you will be missed, speak to you all soon :')


Love and hugs,
Rowan


Gonna leave you with a few tunes :







Lovin' Biffy right now :D




And this because it is appropriate :P


P.S My poll is going pretty much the way i thought it would, keep those votes coming!


See you guys soon!

School's Out!!!

I have finally crossed the finishing line!

What a year it's been for school and it's one i'm not going to forget coz of course, i joined blogger here during my 4th year of high school.

A lot has happened since then. One of my first posts talked about how i was beat up by two boys on my bus, another was about how i hate my guidance teacher. Loads of stuff about prelims, exams and all that but i don't want to talk about it anymore, thats all the bad stuff.

The good stuff was really good. Firstly, joining blogger here back in September, being embraced by the lovely folks here, how epic Christmas was, JJ joining us on blogger (Rhyn following suit), coming out to my cousin in the same month, meeting loads of other great people too and now we're here. Summer :D

I'm not gonna bore you with the details of my day, all i'll say was it was good but agonisingly long.


Anyway, it honestly does feel like a weight has been lifted off of me. I can be my true gay self for the next 7 weeks and not have to worry about being my lying straight self or having to sit and endure immature bullshit day in day out.

School was tough and a quite a struggle this year and i don't think i could have coped as well as i have done if it wasn't for the all help and support from you guys. All your comments, emails, everything have helped me greatly and i owe you guys a lot. I am indebted to you and i love you so much so here's a little cliche tune for all of you...


Love and hugs,
Rowan




C'mon, i couldn't not post that! :P

Almost There...

(I'll explain later lol)

Only one more day of school left! Woot

Tomorrow at 3:30pm, the word "school" officially becomes the worst and most offensive word in my vocabulary for 7 weeks. It's already pretty high up there already, mind :P

Anyway, before we think about the future we must deal with today's events and it was eventful today if not overloaded, busy, kinda fun and a little stressful.

I say stressful but throughout the course of the day, i did have the pleasure of wathcing two movies. English was a double period and we watched The Great Gatsby (BOOORING!!!) and me and Alex just sat up the back making jokes throughout it. I'll get onto my other movie later...

Never got my essay back in English either coz our normal teacher wasn't in. Hopefully tomorrow.

I talked to my guidance teacher about a thing called Education Maintenance Allowance (EMA) which means next year i could possibly receive money monthly, i think, for simply going to school but i need to look into it more. It all depends on the family's income and certain other crap like that but i still think the possibility is very awesome XD

Right, as for my tests in French and Spanish, they all went rather well. I did my Spanish speaking and got 10/10, French writing (although i wont get the mark back for tht coz i don't have French tomorrow) and French speaking where i got 8/10.

Reason being, and both my Spanish and French teachers commented on this - i speak too fast. :P

I'll take the 8/10 thought even if i would have prefered the 10 of course and the Spanish writing i didn't get to sit today so i will have to do that tomorrow :/

Anyway, suppose you're interested to hear about this other movie ^_^

Little Miss Sunshine. It is such a great movie!

We only got to watch 30 mins of it in Media (although i watched the rest at home) and i found it hilarious and... well... the picture at the top of the page... yeh :

Paul Dano. OMG i love him so much! (He's also in L.I.E)

We watched some of Little Miss Sunshine in Media and there is someone in my Media class who i haven't mentioned yet. He's in the year above and he is in our class and he is oh so very cute indeed XD

He's called Samuel (just coz i like that name) and normally i don't sit anywhere near him but because not many people were in i used the old "oh miss, i can't see the board too well up the back here" and she moved me behind him. I was spoilt for choice watching the movie, didn't know who to keep my eyes on - Samuel or Paul Dano :P

In the end i stared at Samuel while Paul Dano wasn't on screen, worked well :D

Samuel also sets off my gaydar :)

He's got obviously very styled and carefully looked after light brown hair, one side of his fringe hangs longer than the other. Also i dunno if i'm speculating too much but he seemed very eager to laugh at all the parts that Paul Dano appeared in... and (in reference to my glasses post) he also looks great when he puts his glasses on!

I suppose my day wasn't too bad on the whole, just could have been better i think. At least it wasn't as bad as last Monday. O_O

Only tomorrow to go and then i am FREEEEEEEE!!!!!

I've been waiting for tomorrow for a *very* long time, in fact, i suppose you could say this week.

Anyway, i've added my poll now (first ever would you believe!) and it's in the sidebar under the followers tab replacing my Formspring section which nobody seemed to use :(

(I'll put it back up though if requested)

The poll is  - vote on your favourite artist of whom i have posted on my blog?

It's gonna stay up for a few weeks or until i decide to end it, coz i'm going away soon and don't know the exact date i'll be back.

And before you ask, The Beatles aren't on there coz i have only posted 2 songs by them! Regardless, i think i see a clear cut winner :P

That's all for the moment :)

Hugs,

Rowan

Two More Days...

Can i survive? O_O


Yes, of course i can, it's just gonna be difficult is all. In fact, only tomorrow looks like it will be difficult. Tuesday looks like it should be ok.

If i get any homework tomorrow that is due for Tuesday i'll be ragin'!!!

:P

Tomorrow is gonna be difficult coz i have speaking and writing tests in both Spanish and French. Ugh.

I've spent quite a chunk of my weekend looking over them, learning them off by heart and it's been quite a struggle coz they are the effectively the same essay but in two different laguages.

Suppose it's good to experience some of what is to come now so i don't get too shocked when i return back after summer.

At least i've been able to do some of my revision outside in my garden over the weekend, it's been real sunny here the past couple of days :D

Spent most of my time in the garden either looking at school stuff or playing on the trampoline with my brother and sister.

Haven't spent so much time with them in a while and i've also noticed that my brother tends to use the words "gay" and "fag" an awful lot than i ever thought he did...


So does my sister *cries*

It's my fecking brother that's got her into saying it, she doesn't even know what it means. He is too much of an influence on her. She hears him say it and she thinks it's ok.

E.g today she called me "a gay bastard"

:'(

She is 9 for fucks sake!

It really upset me when she said that. Tbh i was quite devastated, i just froze and shook my head in disbelief.

It isn't easy talking to a 9 year old about stuff like that but i will tell her at some point that it isn't acceptable to say things like that, hope she understands.


So apart from that dampner today, the weekend has been fairly enjoyable just tomorrow that will be a pain in the ass but i'll get through it. Somehow...

The fact that Steven wont be in this week helps. Dunno why he isn't in but i'm not gonna complain. Well maybe i will a little coz that means there will be no iPhone deal this week and probably not for a few weeks in that case.

Ho hum.


Thanks for your comments and experiences with glasses and contact lenses. I still haven't mentioned it to my mum but as i said, over the summer is probably the best time. I can wait for now :)

Also, erm, im thinking of doing some stuff with my blog.

Don't worry, nothing drastic but i'm kinda getting bored looking at the same thing all the time. I'm thinking a new template but same colour perhaps, i'll try not to make the change too... changey. I don't really like change when i get used to something but i think i need to separate the main body of text from the sidebar. Make them different colours or something or else it looks a bit jumbled (it does to me at least :P)

And i am going to add a poll too, ive got an idea in mind so look out for a poll in the coming days. It should be something music orientated.

Anyhoo, that's about all for now. Must do a bit more revision and then get some sleep for my busy day ahead tomorrow.

<3

Hugs,
Rowan


PS Anton, i've added your blog to my links. Guys, if you haven't seen Anton's blog yet (somehow) go check it out! - http://antonshaus.blogspot.com/

Glasses and Contact Lenses

For as long as i can remember i must have always had bad eye sight. (Yes i have glasses, sexy glasses :P)

It wasn't until i was about 11 though that something was done about it, you see, i never actually knew my eye-sight was bad for 11 years, i simply thought that is what everybody elses must have been like lol

Anyhoo, I remember being in my last year of primary school and the whole class were getting their eyes tested for some reason. I got handed a leaflet after my test was done and i was one of the select few to walk back into class with a leaflet so i felt kinda scared.

I seriously didn't want glasses. There were not many people in my class with specs so i really wanted nothing to do with them.

Anyway, a few weeks later i went to an opticians for another test and then walked out with a pair of glasses :/

I got home and sat them on a table and stared at them, hating them... I then cried coz i had glasses and was expected to wear them.

Mum came in and started with the "oh, look at all the celebs who have glasses, it'll be fine"

So, i gave it a shot and eventually got used to wearing them a bit more, only for stuff like watching tv etc. (it is short-sightedness i am plagued by) :P

I wasn't ever brave enough to wear them in front of others at school though but i knew my time was running out coz i could never read the blackboard so one day i put them on in class and i got "oh, cool you have glasses, since when?" kinda stuff and it was no hassle.

That made me a bit more comfortable wearing them and ever since then i have had no problems about what people think. That is what i was scared of at first, getting called names or being bullied for having them but nothing ever came of it I probably should wear them all the time but i only wear them at home watching tv and at school reading the board. I don't wear them when i'm sitting in front of my computer, typing or if i'm out and about places.

But why am i telling you this?


Coz I really want contact lenses!!!

I am ok with wearing glasses but i just find them annoying now. I absolutely hate not being able to read far away things like signposts and stuff, just irks me completely.

It has for a while. In fact, it was about this time last year that i mentioned to my mum about contact lenses for the first time. Nothing was done for a while but i soon got an appointement at the opticians to try contact lenses.

It went well.

The guy managed to get them in and everything was great. Until... the price of it all was revealed.

I don't know exactly but my mum just said we couldn't afford it at the time and that was it. I cried again.

It hasn't been mentioned for a while but not long ago i went to the the opticians, a different one this time, for a contact lenses appointment and this new guy couldn't get them in my eyes.

He put it down to my reflexes which i think is true but it left me wondering how the other optician did it without any hassle...

*sigh*

Glasses are really annoying me, i know i should wear them all the time to avoid squinting and stuff that might damage my eye-sight further but i am getting to the point where i hate wearing them completely.

So, soon (probably after we come back from London) i am going to say to my mum again and get her to give me another shot at contact lenses. I want them badly. I honestly think it would make me a lot happier coz i don't like seeing myself in glasses (sexy tho they are) :P

I'm not saying people with glasses can't be attractive or good-looking but that's the way they make me feel about myself. I'm sure there are plenty of lovely looking people with glasses out there but i would just prefer not to have them.


This was a pretty random post but i realised it was something you guys didn't know about me yet so thought i would talk about it, hope it was somewhat enjoyable...

I'll try and think of more stuff to post that maybe you don't know about me, or you could always ask me something in a comment, i'd be happy to answer :)

Also want to add a poll about something coz i havent ever done one. I can't think of anything right now to make a poll about but i have all summer to think of something

XD



Hugs,
Rowan

End of This (crap) Week

So ends this long and awful week, about time too, this week has seemed to be completely endless.

School, general crap, 2 of my best friends leaving their blogs, it has not been a good first full week of being 16, i'll tell you that.

But on a slightly more postitive note, today was a bit better, although before i go any further i have a confession to make.

Please don't kill me

I, erm... deliberately skipped 1st period of school this morning.

I know, i shouldn't have but i woke up this morning in a really shitty mood, the thought came into my head and i just went with it. Dunno why, not responsible of me, i know.

I headed the same direction as i do to get the bus but took a detour to the train station, intentionally missed the first train and got the second, i also met someone else skipping 1st period although i don't know him too well.

Anyway, the reason i did it : i just couldn't handle a double period of Spanish, honestly, i couldn't have.

But as it was a double period, i walked in at the end of 1st and got there for the start of 2nd, sat a stupid little verb test which went fine and that was it, no questions asked.

Don't be angry at me guys, i don't skip school often but today was just one of those days. This week was just one of those weeks.

After Spanish tho, things got a bit better, we finished watching a Hitchcock film in Media (Rear Window, surprisingly enjoyable) and a similar verb test in French went well.

Music was the best tho.

We were forced to watch the stupid school play firstly, which is awful but then me and another friend (erm... Stuart) snuck back into the music rooms and messed about on the instruments, jamming. It was so fun. Played some Muse, he was on drums i was on bass. We played fully through a song called Assassin and it was so fun.

The inspiration to be in a band still hasn't struck me however :/

But anyway, that was good, little bit of rebellion never done any harm, (not true but it didn't today) a few people also said they heard us from the English corridor and it sounded good, that was cool.

Only 2 more days left of school XD

And only 7, no 6 days now, as i write this, until i get to see all my family. Can't wait!

Weight of the world is gonna be lifted off my shoulders at 3:30pm on Tuesday afternoon. Monday will be a bitch of a day tho. Got tests in both French and Spanish, speaking and writing.

Evil languages *shakes fist*. They will be the death of me next year.

Gotta revise full notes and re-write stuff over the weekend (fun fun fun) and i will also hopefully be getting my English essay back on Monday. Quite apprehensive about it, i spent quite a lot of time on it so i sincerely hope that i get some good feedback.

Will keep you guys posted.

This is the start of it :

Come As You Are

"I'd rather be hated for who i am than loved for who i'm not"

                                                      - Kurt Donald Cobain

And that's all you're getting just now :P

Lol, i know, im such a tease but i will decide when i get it back whether to post it all or not.

The only thing wrong with it is that there is a word limit and mine is way over that. Supposed to be maximum 1300 but i'm away at about 1800 and that's after cutting out a whole chunk!

So we'll see, i'm not promising i will post it.

...

I almost lost what has become one of my most prized possessions today.

I never really went into much detail about my birthday and i'm still not going to but one thing i did get (im only mentioning this coz it is rather noteworthy, to me anyway) was a special Muse necklace/chain.

Who from?

Only my dear cousin Lauren :P

I havent taken it off since June 10th, except from the obvious showering etc. and i took it off for that same reason today. I forgot to lift it for some reason when i came out the bathroom and then i froze "where is it!?"

Nearly had a panic attack, honestly. I've grown really attached to it. But where did it end up?

In my jeans pocket *facepalms*

Which btw, nearly went in the washing machine. Don't think it would have quite looked the same had it gone in there. Here's what it really looks like :

It's really cool and now goes wherever i go :)

But yeh, so relieved i found it, would have summed up a crap week had i lost it.

And as for that crap week, well, it's been hellish but i just need to put it behind me simply. Get Monday out the way, Tuesday shouldn't be too strenuous and then i'm done finished for 6 weeks of rebellion and debauchery!

Jk, but summer should be epic!

Anyhooz, i've wrote a lot more than i thought i was going to and now i is very very tired so i'm heading off to bed now!

Cheers guys

Hugs,

Rowan